Ryan Bramley: Coming Out

Ryan Bramley talks about being open about mental health and the importance of support from others.

It’s time to come clean.

No, not like that. Not that I haven’t questioned or critiqued my sexuality before…I think most of us do. For the moment, I’m entirely comfortable in that aspect of my life. But here it is: a couple of weeks ago, I received a piece of paper that said, in no uncertain terms:

“Ryan has provided the Disability and Dyslexia Support Service with evidence that he is disabled.”

I think it’s important to share this, not because my own life is particularly significant, but because the issue of mental health concerns far more people than me alone. And if putting myself out on the line can help even one other person out there, then it was totally worth opening up.

I am, in many, many ways, fortunate for what I have: a fairly healthy body (albeit with a little excess baggage!), a brilliant support network (thanks to family and friends), and the ability to blag my way into a PhD. But, living life with the long-term mental health conditions I have – moderate depression, anxiety, and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder – can often make it easy to lose sight of all of that.

Sight is, of course, important. Because the type of disability I have isn’t always easy to actually see, it’s easily disregarded – especially, in my experience, by those who have it themselves. By this, I mean that it is very easy to put yourself down for not being able to do this or that, when in actual fact, it isn’t your fault at all.

I should probably stress that this isn’t simply exclusive to those like myself with a mental health condition. Any one of us can have a bad day, and perhaps we should make more space, both for ourselves and for others around us, to be able to have bad days. We are being frequently reminded in the media what can happen when we’re not allowed to have one. And yet, the pressure on individuals to be okay only seems to be growing.

For me, having a Learning Support Plan put in place by my University last month has already been a massive help and I would recommend it to anyone who feels that they could benefit from having one. It hasn’t changed the fact of my condition, but it lends that little extra support and understanding when I have to tell my department that I need to stay at home today – either to work from my home desk or, on those especially bad days, to simply stay in bed and sleep it off.

I’m fortunate enough to work and study in an institution that encourages the kind of visibility around mental health that this blog post enables by virtue. It’s the only way, in my opinion, to ever truly dismantle the stigma that forces so many with mental health conditions to put up and shut up until breaking point comes around – whatever horrible form it takes. Luckily for me, breaking point made me finally open up. Not everyone is quite as lucky as I am.

Ryan writes regularly in his blog ‘All-Res’ where he first posted his story ‘Coming Out’ https://all-res.co.uk/ 

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